Since I still have over 200 followers on here, which I can't even believe with how long I've been gone, I thought I'd let you guys know that I have returned to blogging. My new blog is here.

Miss Me?

Just in case you miss your daily dose of Kim I'm using Tumblr a lot now.

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Tribulations & Revelations

I'm visiting my sister & her munchkins in South Carolina right now. It's a nice trip away from home but I get homesick in like two days. I miss my beagle, kitty, best friend & boyfriend.

My biggest frustration right now is being misunderstood by people. People make assumptions constantly but a lot of times you just don't know so you need to ask. Honestly, that might be a big reason why I changed this blog to a personal one and no longer dole out advice and positive musings. I feel like a lot of them have been misunderstood, misconstrued, or just warped. Sometimes I read over what people have said about what I've written or listen to something someone says in response to what I've said and I've been perceived so differently from how I intended that it makes me want to gag. I often times don't bother correcting and just move on.

Another thing is I am crazy moody. Wesley says I'm "a girl" but I seriously have got to be one of the most mood oriented people I've ever met. I throw things out the window as soon as I'm not feeling it which makes hard for me to make concrete decisions like what I want to do with my future or whether or not I want to get a tattoo.

At this point I'm kind of just embracing it and try to give myself time to get over moods and not let them effect me or others negatively. I'm moody. Really moody. One minute I couldn't care less and the next minute I'm pining for what I threw away.

I'm also nurturing a different side to me right now & that's the geeky, blood and guts loving, edgy, risk taking side. I'm starting to think my entire personality is a contradiction but I'm okay with that.

I used to feel like I had to constantly be offering things to people and at this point when I look back at some of the gooey, sappy, sticky stuff I've written on here it makes me feel iffy. It's how I felt at the time but now I'm morphing into something else. As a friend said "It's nice to see you letting your hair down." It's nice to do it and not in secret.

I used to have different outlets that I separated from one another but now I'm just trying to balance myself out the best I can.

I go through different phases with my style, demeanor, and influences. Sometimes I throw things away for a long time or stick them in a box but I eventually come back if it really tickled my fancy enough.

Right now I'm homesick and a little grumpy. I'm feeling gross because I've eaten too much junk food while I've been here and not enough fruits and veggies.

Also, I don't really think this blog is going back to the way it was. My interests have shifted. Again.

A Day in the Life

I know I've been neglectful & I haven't even really been updating on my life much. I've decided that every once in a while I'll update you on what I'm currently doing/liking/consuming as often as I see necessary. Thanks to all of you who stuck around.

First of all, I put orange dye in my hair. It's way more orange than in the photo. I decided I wanted a sunnier color for summer.

Lately I've been walking my beagle, Alice 4 and a half miles around the lake near my house. We're both getting in better shape but I made the mistake of wearing my Converse two days in a row since I have no other sneakers. Blister city & not enough support. So, I bought these:

Ridiculous right? Ridiculously awesome. I can't wait until they get here.

I registered for school and got all my books. I start in June which is exciting. I'm not sure anymore what my immediate future holds and I don't know if and when I'm moving back to CA.

I'm currently obsessed with adding color to my wardrobe, revisiting crazy Japanese 8bit/electro music, and eating gyoza. I'm spending a lot of time with good friends and embracing the fact that I finally feel like I have a close knit group of people to hang out with on a regular basis, something I haven't had in a very long time.

On Monday I take another trip to South Carolina for 10 days to see my sister & her munchkins which is always exciting.

I've been nerding out 24/7 and writing for Baby Loves Zombies. On that subject, I saw Kick Ass last night and loved it.

June holds a lot of good things for me including another visit from my dear friends Jenny & Matt and Comic Con in Philadelphia, as I mentioned last post.

I'm feeling pretty happy lately and I don't have a lot to complain about. I hope all of you are well. ♥

Photo of the Day April 7th, 2010

It would almost be like a school girl thing if it wasn't for my epic Godzilla shirt. Also: my phone auto corrects the capitalization for "Godzilla." It knows what's important.

Bowling

Some photos from our bowling trip last night. ♥

About that Zombie Board Game...

A few of you asked about it, I did a write up here: Last Night on Earth - The Zombie Board Game.

Realizations & Personal Stuff

(Junko Mizuno)

Lately, I've spent a lot of amazing time with friends. I've come to one realization, though: I don't show people how much I like them, even if I think I do. For some reason, I'm just really not expressive and reluctant about showing my like for someone. I've made some of my very best friends feel like they're imposing on me when I can't wait to see them. I make a lot of people insecure about their connections with me, even if they are solid.

I think this is for a couple reasons. One, I'm not a very openly affectionate person. I try my best but I'm just not. It's comfortable for me to keep to myself as a rule, though there are times where I feel especially loving towards certain people. Another is that my family isn't big on talking about feelings -- just taking them out on each other. Hah.

To make up for this, I've been trying to let people know more often how much I like them or want to see them. I've also realized that when I have a confrontation with someone, I come across really harsh. Even if I don't mean to. I've scared the crap out of a lot of my friends without even realizing it. So, now I try to say something like "I'm not trying to be harsh." or "I'm not upset."

I don't think I have a very expressive face, though my eyes are. When I wear sunglasses it's like a mask for my emotions. Handy at times but, so I hear, intimidating other times. I never thought I was an intimidating person. As a tiny redhead standing 5'1", one would imagine I'm not very threatening. Though, I can't tell you how many times I've been called intimidating.

Besides that soul searching realization, yesterday I had an adventure that involved udon, gyoza, used books, comics, ice cream, and eventually fajitas. It was awesome. All of my best friendships have connected on geekiness and food love. They are necessary pieces to the puzzle.

I'm putting all my blogging energy into Baby Loves Zombies, which I hope in the future will take off into something amazing. I put a new layout up the other day which took me a few hours to work on. I think it looks way better and makes me feel more confident about the site as a whole. This blog will be used as a personal blog for now. I figure that whoever cares will stay, and whoever used this blog purely as a self help kind of thing will probably move on. Thanks to those of you who care. ♥

I also like Tumblr now. So, if you have one you can follow me.

I have plans to go to Comic Con in June. I'm really excited because I've never been to Philadelphia and I've never been to a Comic Con even though I used to live so close to San Diego. Word is that there will be a Dr. Horrible Sing Along Blog panel... ♥ Neil Patrick Harris.

Things are changing a lot for me and I finally feel like the many sides of me are coming together somehow into one. It's hard keeping up with all the faces of me. Exhausting even, but it's getting easier.

Hi, My Name is Kim

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Hi, my name is: Kim

Never in my life have I been: to Japan. ;(

The one person who can drive me nuts is: my mother. But I still love her.

High school: has been over for a very long time.

When I’m nervous: I get knots in my stomach.

The last song I listened to was: Sam's Town by The Killers.

If I were to get married right now my best man/maid of honor: my sister.

My hair is: red, getting longer, and curly. I did it Rita Hayworth style yesterday.

When I was 5: I sat on my dad's lap and played Doom.

Last Christmas: was lonely. My family wasn't here but I had Wesley. ♥

I should be..: I don't know. I don't have any obligations at the moment.

When I look down I see: my gray dress.

The happiest recent event was: spending a week with Jenny, Matt, Caroline, Wesley, & Alli. My favorite people.

If I were a character on ‘Friends’ I’d be: Monica Geller. I'm really crazy like her and I come off like clean freak & perfectionist but I remember the episode where Chandler found her secret closet full of crap and it reminds me so much of me. I've never been fat though.

By this time next year: I have no idea.

My current gripe is: I have like 10 minor physical ailments right now and combined they make me feel bedridden.

I have a hard time understanding: how to balance the many sides of me. I may as well have multiple personality disorder.

There’s this girl I know that: is far away and I miss her very much.

I like you when: you take the time to get to know me without judgment or being scared off because I'm so hard to read.

If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: Wesley. He always is the first to know things.

Take my advice: don't pin yourself into a corner. Life is full of possibilities. Try to follow as many of them as you can.

The thing I want to buy: a pair of black moccasins or the NANA anime on DVD.

If you visited the place I was born: you would be in Santa Clara, California.

If you spent the night at my house: we would probably watch a movie and play a bunch of video games while eating. We might drink too and you can listen to me tell you all my philosophies on Silent Hill 2. I might make you watch Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog if you haven't seen it or we could play Last Night on Earth. ♥

I’d stop my wedding if: my dad wasn't there.

The world could do without: hate & illogical anger.

I’d rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: ...uh. I dunno. That sounds awful.

Most recent thing I’ve bought myself: 2 pairs of Wayfarer sunglasses so I can have a pair like Holly Golightly. They look cute on Wesley too. Actually, I think wayfarers suit almost everyone.

Most recent thing someone else bought me: Pokemon Soul Silver. ♥ Wesley.

My middle name is: Maria.

In the morning I: am usually still asleep.

The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are: kitties, then again maybe not because my cat would be that much harder to keep track of. Pigs perhaps as long as they stopped to poop.

Once, at a bar: I watched a bunch of extremely talented transvestites impersonate celebrities. It was a blast.

Last night I was: eating a steak and chocolate waffle at Jackson's.

There’s this guy I know who: love very much.

If I was an animal I’d be: a cat. No doubt.

A better name for me would be: I have no idea. I tried to go by Kimber for a while but it never stuck.

Tomorrow I am: going to pick out my classes.

Tonight I am: hopefully going to finish Bioshock 2 or No More Heroes 2.

My birthday is: July 5th.

I found this on tumblr. You can use it too if you want.

Update on the Life of Kim

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I've been posting pretty infrequently on here. Perhaps some of you have noticed. Why? For a few reasons. One being that I've almost felt like I've exhausted everything I have to say on the advice/positivity topics.

Another reason would be that my interests have strayed to all things geeky as of late. I'm sure most of you know this, but for those of you who don't: I'm a nerd above everything else. My friends are pretty much all super geeks too, so when spending a lot of time with them we all sort of go into that world. I've been playing a lot of video games as of late and even zombie board games.

Lately, I've been writing a lot more for my other blog: Baby Loves Zombies. It's where my main blogging focus is at the moment, so for daily updates check there (follow too?) though I know it won't apply to the majority of you here. My goal is to get that one off the ground, so if you guys know anyone who loves zombies & video games please send them over. ♥

I'm not by any means getting rid of this blog, but for now I'm going to use it as more of a personal blog than I have in the past. I'll document important things in my life and post things that I find inspiring/helpful. I may go right back to posting all the things I used to but I'm not sure at the moment. I'm sort of at a crossroads. I'll probably do a lot more posts about observations on life. You are all still 100% welcome to ask for advice, too.

I didn't want to leave you guys hanging. You know how I always let you know what's going on with me. I guess sometimes I just get a little burnt out on inspiration for this blog and lately I've had a lot more to say about the other side of me.

I'm going back to school very soon and I'm taking a trip back to South Carolina before I do. Life is getting busier and busier for me, which is really good. I had a lot of downtime for a long period of time and I'm excited to get busy again.

Right now my life seems like it has a million different doors of opportunity that I can go through and I'm not sure which one to choose. So, for now I'm taking things one day at a time. I'm going to go to school and take some time to figure out what exactly I want to do. The possibilities literally seem endless. I'm so curious to see where I'll be in one year or even in five.

I hope you all are well. Thanks for always reading. ♥

Settling for Less than You Deserve

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When you think about your life, do you think you have what you deserve? Does your significant other treat you right? Are you respected at work? Do your friends care the way they should?

I think a lot of the people I know would answer "No." to those questions. Sometimes it seems like we get trapped in certain situations and feel like there's no escape. As if we must settle for less. Let me tell you a secret: that's not true.

I think a lot of us get hung up on the convenience and practicality of everyday life and overlook our own personal happiness. You don't have to do what's expected of you & you don't have to follow the rules of normalcy.

More often than not life doesn't just put what you're looking for right into your hands. You have to take it. Seek it out & make it yours.

Make your life what you want it to be. You only get one and time flies by quicker than you might think. Draw your own map. Make your own rules. Start really living your life and don't let it pass you by.

Don't settle for less than you deserve.

Adventure Week Roundup

What a week! As I informed you earlier I had three friends visiting this week. My friend Matt from New York, Jenny from Kansas who I was meeting for the very first time, and my dearest Caroline coming home from college for spring break. Along with them I had my boyfriend Wesley and good friend Alli around quite a lot. It was an interesting group.

I'm very exhausted to tell you the truth. Entertaining can be tiring. We tried to pack something fun into every day and it felt like it was over in the blink of an eye. Dropping Jenny off at the airport today was surreal. It felt as if I had only gone to get her.

Meeting her in general was quite surreal. I've known her for about five years online and we finally decided to take the plunge and hope the other was what we thought & not a serial killer. We found out that we both might be killers after all (hah!) but we still like each other very much regardless. You might know her as the co-writer of our neglected horror/nerd culture blog Baby Loves Zombies.

While I'm extremely sad that everyone's gone home it will be nice to get back to my normal routine. I drank too much alcohol & ate too much junk food. I had a few cigarettes (shame) and definitely didn't sleep enough. My body is begging for mercy and I'm happy to oblige it. I'm also really eager to get back to writing and picking out my classes for school.

Wesley took a lot of pictures so here they are, just in case you've been wondering what on earth I could be doing being away from my internet addiction for so long. Yes, I said the word. Jenny is the cure.

We went to the zoo which explains the random photos of animals.

This is Matt looking like a Metal god. He calls these Cozy Coops. I've never heard of them but he was excited and that very excitement was infectious.

The infamous creepface which never fails to make me crack up laughing no matter what mood I'm in. The more unexpected the better.

I kind of wish my face was this expressive.

Great license plate or greatest license plate?

In anticipation of the 40 cupcakes I made.

Accidental Mazda advertisement.

We're planning a Silent Hill themed wedding. She's gonna dress up like Pyramid Head and I'll be a nurse. ♥

I find this hilarious for reasons which I think are obvious.

Epic.

Alli could not resist such an opportunity. Above the panda with an unexplained crotch hole it says "Built to survive."

I failed to get any photos of Caroline which must be remedied this summer. She wasn't around for photo heavy adventures in DC.

I just woke up from a nap and I'm still exhausted. I think it's bedtime. Hopefully this was a mildly amusing post for you guys and the blog will be back to normal very soon.

This week I'm back to healthy eating, tea consumption, a regular sleep schedule, and working out. I need to get my life back in line! I feel like I've been out of touch with my routine for far too long. I was watching Where the Wild Things Are but it looks like I'll have to finish it tomorrow because Wesley is passed out here next to me and the film has an unexpected amount of screaming in it.